Path Towards Faith

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Photo by  Luis Miguel Martínez Bonilla   A few days ago I was reading a devotional and within that the author, Priscilla Shirer, told a story of a donkey that spent its life walking in a circle giving rides to little children at fairs. When this donkey was "retired" it went to spend the rest of its days in a huge, beautiful pasture. Instead of roaming around its new land it just walked in circles, because that is all it had ever known. The point of her analogy was to show us that as Christians we have been given a new life, and to question why we keep walking in the circles of unforgiveness, shame and guilt. "This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; an new life has begun!" 2 Corinthians 5:17 If you, in your heart, have accepted Jesus as Lord and Savior, knowing that he died for our sins, then you are born again (made new). This should be exciting news! As believers, we are not called to remain in those circles of gu...

Photo by Penny Matthews I have two daughters, each of them is so different from the other, but they are both special gifts to me. It is with a heavy heart that I write today of my oldest and the internal pain she is under. Her pain comes out as rage, anger, hateful words and condescending remarks made towards all of us in our home. She has cut herself off from so many and wonders often why she feels so alone. She is in a vicious cycle of anger and sadness and refuses all attempts of help. In the past few years I have made every attempt to mend fences, heal wounds that I did not put there and try to be a peacekeeper. It was all pointless and upon reflection probably made things worse.  While my heart is still heavy, I know now that she has to remain in God's hands and that only He can "fix" this situation. Proverbs 22:6 says, "Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it." That is what I am attempting to do now through...

Some big events took place this week for myself and my family. First, because I have recommitted to God I had to tell me husband and children for the first time in 18 years what I believed in and where I stand. I had to talk to them about my past and apologize for not doing what God commands of me as a Christian for so long.  It seems like this would be simple, but it was very difficult for me to do simply because I did not know what their response would be. I did not know if this was going to destroy my family as I have known it, but it had to be done even if I lost it all.  As I read this week about forgiveness, honesty and integrity, I was being strongly conflicted that as much as I value those words I was not embodying them by remaining silent about my faith in God.  The conversations went well and I know that was God. I now feel the freedom to offer to pray with my teenagers and to talk to them about God, there is no hiding in fear any longer. I new I had to truly ac...